I'm attempting to do this next post using this fancy new cell phone app... so just preempting a few spelling/grammatical errors...
I was going through all my social media bio's and having a good cringe at most of them... in every single one I describe myself as wild, forever young, free, forever 22 (I don't know why 22 came in here) wild heart, never thinking with my head...you get the picture! I have been told my entire life that I was Peter Pan and that my head was always floating in the clouds - living in Neverland one could say. I have always enjoyed that...it has helped me make some very creative excuses as to why I was never good at maths, or why I chose not to go to university straight away because of a boyfriend, or why I am constantly spending money on things I just don't need, I do all this why? Because I'm a free, wild spirit!
However as I am no longer 22, the ink of my fresh "Finding Neverland" tattoo is starting to fade into my skin, I no longer have the money to spend on frivolous things, love and all that becomes a much more difficult and short lived joy because we're all in that limbo area where commitment takes so much more strength than it used to and I need maths, everyday! I also am not sailing around the world, or hiking through foreign mountains...no, I go to an office everyday 9-5 and I sit in meetings and have managers...it seems very far off from my existence in Neverland!
Am I disappointed that my life never developed any chaotic colour or magical whims? No I'm not... I get to form solid and everlasting "commitments." These commitments range from relationships to residency to getting healthy to being able to seriously focus on you as a person...sounds corny but it's matter of fact. I might lead a semi predictable life, but as I've said before, for me that was always going to be the adventure... predictability was going to be my challenge and as it turns out, the benefits if this life have been incomparable!
One day I'll sail off to Neverland... (cringe) and I'll have another type of adventure, become the wild spirited girl again...but for now, borderline 24, im really happy being predictable!
I was going through all my social media bio's and having a good cringe at most of them... in every single one I describe myself as wild, forever young, free, forever 22 (I don't know why 22 came in here) wild heart, never thinking with my head...you get the picture! I have been told my entire life that I was Peter Pan and that my head was always floating in the clouds - living in Neverland one could say. I have always enjoyed that...it has helped me make some very creative excuses as to why I was never good at maths, or why I chose not to go to university straight away because of a boyfriend, or why I am constantly spending money on things I just don't need, I do all this why? Because I'm a free, wild spirit!
However as I am no longer 22, the ink of my fresh "Finding Neverland" tattoo is starting to fade into my skin, I no longer have the money to spend on frivolous things, love and all that becomes a much more difficult and short lived joy because we're all in that limbo area where commitment takes so much more strength than it used to and I need maths, everyday! I also am not sailing around the world, or hiking through foreign mountains...no, I go to an office everyday 9-5 and I sit in meetings and have managers...it seems very far off from my existence in Neverland!
Am I disappointed that my life never developed any chaotic colour or magical whims? No I'm not... I get to form solid and everlasting "commitments." These commitments range from relationships to residency to getting healthy to being able to seriously focus on you as a person...sounds corny but it's matter of fact. I might lead a semi predictable life, but as I've said before, for me that was always going to be the adventure... predictability was going to be my challenge and as it turns out, the benefits if this life have been incomparable!
One day I'll sail off to Neverland... (cringe) and I'll have another type of adventure, become the wild spirited girl again...but for now, borderline 24, im really happy being predictable!
So well written Mads. X
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Thank you!