So now that the blog has been reinvented, now it's time to get the rest of life in order... I always find it better to write it down, record it and then hopefully, my new "set of rules" will guide me into creating (excuse the cliche) a better me!

First things first... I am now in the working world, I graduated and got a job.. pretty standard really, I didn't go off on some crazy adventure like I originally said I would, instead I merely glided into normal everyday life and if I am honest it really has been a treat. Being on a salary has seriously made me question my economical brain. Ok, I've never really possessed that but still... the shopping addiction seemingly escalated as my first pay check wen through the bank. HUGE problems! 

My goal of the week.... learn to budget! 

1. Do not go to the shops when you know you cant afford the clothes, that's dumb, you will cry!

2. You know you cant afford to go out to lunch/dinner/coffee so find yourself a boyfriend that will take you       on dates, no I am joking, but rather just have your people round to your place and maybe ask you BFF to grab a carton of milk on their way? Then you have for the whole week!

3. 2 Minute noodles... do not underestimate the power of the R4 dinners!

4. If you think that by shopping at Mr Price is going to save you money, you're wrong. You will end up spending more because each individual item is so cheap that it seems like such a bargain, until you get to the till point at and the cashier ask's you to swipe your life away... again you will cry.

5. Get a hobby, will keep you out of the stores (and no, not a hobby that;s going to require you spending more time buying things) 

6. Put your cold turkey feelings into maybe exercise or reading books... don't start smoking or drinking, you will be more broke than before. 

7. At the beginning of the month, spend your money on the necessities, you know, petrol, groceries, rent... this does not include a new jacket or shoes because its your treat. NO, you are not rich, you cannot treat yourself!

Let's see how long this lasts...ha!

Simplified, modified and justified

It really has been a good long time since I have sat and sent some of my own personal thoughts out into cyber space. So many different things have changed that I am seriously unsure of where to begin...

Lets start with the blogs new look. I guess in essence it has followed the same course that my life is on at the moment. In 3 words I guess I would describe it as simplified, modified and justified...I lost interest in the hustle and bustle of trying to make the blog overly pretty. So now its back to a simple, raw and real design with an incredibly dorky but fun title! 

Just going to have fun with this one I suppose...

AND I'M BACK....... 

So, hear I am contemplating what may be one of the top decisions of my life. For about 4 years now, my mind has been lingering on the idea of getting some "ink" (as the die hards say I think) It's quite a controversial thing in my life as I would be the first in the family to do so, I cant imagine my precious parents to be too happy about me doing it but I’m sure they would embrace it over time. I mean let’s be serious, I’m not exactly the skull bearing, motor cycling, barbed wire, hard core "jail bird” that one immediately associates with tattoos. I look at it more as a way to express some inner feeling that I possess that I feel best describes me and that I sometimes battle to show it to the world. 

I don’t look at it as something that I may live to regret, I believe that one day when I'm old and the wrinkles have taken over, Ill be able to look at the tattoo as a little symbol of my youth and remember some incredible times that revolved around it. I guess one could say, I would always be "Finding Neverland" hmmmm 

Did I just make my mind up? I think so!! 

On my gap yah.....;)

So today has been a complete waste of a day for me.... It’s probably been one of the grimmest days we've had in Cape Town this winter. Morning started off with hail against my window, (reflecting my mood ironically) slowly followed by a continuous down pour that continued all day. This sort of weather makes it absolutely impossible to do anything, I must confess, my TV has even been moved into my room so I can stay under the duvet. Feeling melancholic, like the weather, I opt for not writing emotionally and boring you all, instead focus on a decision that I made to completely change my life.

I never took a gap year after school, I always felt like I should of, but when I moved to Cape Town, I got completely engulfed by everything this city had to offer. How can one not like Cape Town? The thought of finding somewhere more beautiful is hard to imagine, and I’m not completely naive, I have been to Venice before ;) However, due to recent changes, I am feeling the pull of Cape Town loosen more and more and I’m seriously beginning to question my purpose here. I am slowly starting to realise that at this moment, there is actually nothing holding me here anymore. After graduation I will have absolutely no plans, nothing and nobody determining where I should or shouldn’t be. It’s the most freeing thought and I feel a complete sense of contentment. Ok where was I going with this...um... oh yes...my gap year! So I have decided to do the gap year I never did in 2013. Some may see this as running away, but for me, as dramatic and cliché as it sounds; I’m going to rediscover a person that I lost a long time ago. To many, this may not seem as big a deal because they've already done it or whatever, but for me leaving my family and Cape Town is a toughie. There is truly only one place on my mind and that's Australia. I’m not going to give much away just yet... but there is more to come.... I can smell adventure and new beginnings.... wow that sounds flowery, but whatever!

But for now...I’m letting go, moving on and am permanently connected to my sewing 

machine! Gosh! 

By the way, Ellie Goulding...WOW!

xx

Good Morning!

Monday is upon us again....but I'm not feeling that horrible bleh feeling that is generally associated with this day. Maybe it's because I graduate in 38 days or maybe it's because I spent a gorgeous weekend with my girlfriends in Stellenbosch, tasting wine at "grape day out." If you weren't there, you missed out! I have to say it was probably one of my most favourite days spent this year.

I'm feeling a complete lack of inspiration at present, but I've figured out a solution. I kind of have this theory, if a girl is feeling good on the inside, it will completely reflect on the outside. I think that girls who feel good and sexy in their underwear will be able to emulate that on their outer layer. Where am I going with this.....? Oh yes, so I have taken that theory and transformed it into my everyday life. I have decided to decorate my apartment in a way that will continuously inspire my life. As a student, the budget is limited so I'm going to have to get creative. Went for a walk around Canal Walk and I discovered my Utopia, "Typo" possibly the world’s most beautiful decorative, bits n bobs, store. Do yourselves a favour...It's not expensive, but if you have no self control like myself, make sure you go with some savings, once you start its going to be hard to stop.

So I'm going to disappear into the world of interior decor...student style! Song of choice... "Run, Baby, Run" download the track free from www.kfc.co.za...so incredible.
<3

Something to disappear into....

 

 

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

 

-Edward Estlin Cummings